When Inspiration Hits | Music

Hey readers!

I've been wanting to update my blog for so so so long, but haven't gotten down to it cause photoshoots just take so long, especially since I don't have a photographer as of yet (I rely on self-timers); it' super time consuming. But that aside, today, inspiration hit and I wrote a song :)

Watch the vid below to check it out!

I know I'm still quite raw at this, so do pardon any mistakes/nonsensical lyrics and stuff (especially the last part :( )! Meanwhile here're the lyrics for you to follow while watching the vid~ 

Here's What I'm Not

Verse 1:

I'm not just here for your entertainment, your clown of five years

I'm not just here; your thrill ride seeker, dream spurrer

I'm not just here to take your burdens 

Here's what I'm not, not for your mere expectations

Chorus:

Here are my thoughts of little consequence which may not mean a thing to you

Here are my overridden voices taking centerstage, take the mike from you

I'm drawing the veil, breaking the heart ache,

You left in your wreckage

Verse 2:

I'm not just here; your wine glass partner, turn the corner

and I'll be there no matter how or why

I'm not just here to take your burdens 

Here's what I'm not, not for your mere expectations

[Chorus]

Bridge:

I wasn't kidding when I said promises are meant for keeping

I wasn't kidding when I said forever is forever

I wasn't kidding when I said promises are meant for keeping

I wasn't kidding when I said promises are meant for keeping

[Chorus]

What I'm Wearing: F21 Velvet Skater Dress, Sephora Matte Red Lipstick

And as usual, the happy shots to end off!

Much love,

Jubitai

Vulnerable | Salvaged

Hi readers! 

Haven't blogged in a long long time/

This whole "holiday" has been crazy packed and I've already fallen sick twice within a single month. Feeling somewhat terrible even as I blog right now. Anyway, just did this shoot yesterday, and right after which I got a fever and slept so much I got tired of sleeping. Sadly, the shoot turned out not as great as I hoped for it to be, and I had to salvage what I could this morning. Then again, I'm somewhat enjoying the vintage grainy feel of the shots after editing.

I just felt like this song echoed this shoot. A Great Big World and Aguilera's voices complement each other really well; they're beautifully haunting and vulnerable in song. That was exactly it: the vulnerability which reflected the sentiments of my shoot. 



There's that certain sense of solitude and guarded vulnerability. I wonder, maybe, if you know the feeling when you're so made-up and trim on the outside, so gelled together without a single thing out of place, yet you're crumbling down inside. Well, it's been happening to me. Ironically, whilst others may get confidence out of their looks, sometimes I feel downright terrible when I dress up and I lose my self-assurance. Even more ironic that I call myself a fashion-art blogger on my Instagram profile. It hasn't always been like that though; might also be the result of a myriad of things happening so far and a few of my own heart issues like my oxymoronic tendency to push people away the more I favour them (only some people, not all my close friends of course). Perhaps it was good for me to have fallen sick yesterday, gave me quite a bit of time to chew up the big pieces of heart issues and think 'em through. Therefore, letting some things go and I'll be on the road to physical and emotional recovery. Haha but don't get me wrong, I'm not depressed or anything, just overworked in my physical/emotional capacity for the moment. Here I am, with my little slice of vulnerability.

What I'm wearing: Pale Pink Hi-Neck Dress purchased from Carousell, Purple Vintage Ruffle Maxi Skirt from Hong Kong (thrifted)

Sorry about the lack of happy pictures to end off for this post~

 (Still with) Much love, 

Jubitai

Anniversary | Where it all started

This was where it all started: exactly one year ago. 

In the beginning, it all started from a single photoshoot which honestly was meant for filling up space on my AEP blog last year. Now, it's an avid hobby.

From being armed with an Olympus digital camera, cheesy overlay phone apps and Instagram, to now (to my relief), equipped with a DSLR and proper blog, doing photoshoots purposefully.

I'd say I've grown in my style, and from utter randomness to more randomness, from raw and unskilled to a little more skilled, from utter noob to less noob :) Still learning, still trying to grasp what I haven't/ 

Below are the stuff and photos I myself haven't seen in a long long long time, and a short visual diary of where it all began.

Oh, nostalgia.

Love, 

Jubitai 

P.S. sorry for the bad quality; changed my laptop since then and I took these off Facebook.

DIY | Kimono Kraze

Hey readers!

I guess I caught on to the Kimono craze, and I DIYed my own Kimono Outerwear. Materials weren't that cheap at Arab Street with the printed cloth going at $10/m and the inner lining material at $5/m, but I guess still better than heading to spotlight. I took around 5 hours just to piece the entire kimono together from scratch, with inner lining and all; need to practice to work faster. If you guys are curious on how I did the kimono, do refer to Elle Apparel's tutorial as a reference model --- really useful!

Moving on to the exciting part: the shoot!

By the way, I was looking through the photos and I just couldn't help but laugh. I just looked like such a tree hugger in some of the photos.

What I'm Wearing: Handmade Black Floral Kimono Jacket, Black Leotard, H&M Basic Black Skater Skirt, ASOS Grey Creepers, ASOS Jewelled Hand Harness

(Btw I've posted this look on Lookbook, do help to support! It'll be much appreciated ^^)

I'd say this DIY project was definitely a success because it was the first time I bothered with inner lining and stuff, thus it was presentable before a camera. Yayers!

Other than that, I've also made a skirt out of the same material, which I may post later if I do a shoot with it or feel like it. Meanwhile, let me just flood this following part with some happiness and randomness.

i) Today was a beautiful day.

 (probably already developing some treehugger instincts huh)

ii) So many girls hope to be more beautiful in one way or another. (myself included)

ESPECIALLY the whole thigh gap thing nowadays.

So unless you want to be a tripod, stop worrying! (okay this sounds nonsensical but let me explain)

You want to show more leg?

Sure, a tripod's got three.

You want longer, bronzier, skinnier legs?

Yeah, that all falls under 'tripod' too.

I'm so bad at telling jokes that only sounds funny in my head.

iii) The light hit the crystals beautifully. No editing needed. 

Sorry for the weird format of posting today cause it's all a messy mix. Nonetheless, ending off with more happiness ^_^

<<<<<<< Happy holidays! >>>>>>

Much love, 

Jubitai

Debut | Mermaid

{ Mermaid, to be trapped in space and time. 

To be caught in air as if underwater. 

To be caught in the body of a fish while being so human at the same time. }

Hey readers!

Here's my debut post of my blog to be based on photography and fashion and in general, art; enjoy your stay here! 

P.S. I did want to start with a jumpsuit for my debut in line with my blog name, but I did this impromptu shoot and decided to go along with this instead~

Love, Jubitai

What I'm Wearing: ASOS Cross-back Midi Dress

Also posted on Instagram, please follow to support! Self-photographed