Playlist | Inconsequential Ranting

Hey readers! 

I apologise I haven't blogged in a horribly long time. Um but I haven't returned with any photoshoots either (not that it matters all that crucially). I get kind of rant-y whenever I blog, like it's just my babble and stuff so just take it as if I'm ranting to you. Well, how has life been to you lately? I've had a pretty conflicting week so far, but it's been interesting and thought-provoking. But my conclusions are as thus far: I need to decide who I am. 

No one's perfect, but still, I consider it relatively astonishing that after 18 years of my life I've yet to resolve my identity. Sure, I can always go back to the root of it all: child of God, loved and cherished by Him, yet something has yet to click in between to bridge my identity gap. Sometimes, I don't even think I know myself very well at all, and I'd like to just take someone who might somehow know me from the inside out to tell me what I'm like or who I am. You know, something to define me. I've got a deficit - a lack of a dream, passion and drive; I witness these values in the least expected places/people, where so unsuspectingly, the unobserved success stories slip past.

I've been thinking. I've been relative, not absolute. Well, not in my moral system (it must stay intact), but in terms of my passion and drive. Be it in dance, music or fashion, I can't cleanly say that none of them have been tinted and tainted with the desire to be recognised by others. Well, recognition is not exclusive to our affection for our sport, but the question I've been bouncing off the walls of mind is this: without the applause, without the acknowledgment, would you still do it? Would you still continue with this thing you call your passion and your love? That, for me, is where someone's drive lies: it's intrinsic. It's absolute instead of relative to let's say, other's persuasion or dissuasion. But what if my very passion is aggrandised by the salute received? Perhaps none of those three things are my root passion; rather, they are mere manifestations symptomatic of my root passion - the sprouts of my buried genesis. Even as I pen this (or rather jab at the keyboard), I think I've just been reminded that my root passion could actually be the love of performing. 

And that comes with its horde of concerns and considerations.

How do I even begin to dissect that???

For now, I think I think too much; raising way too many questions with too few answers. [Disclaimer: I love to play with my words, it does not always mean that I'm convoluting my thinking.]

Meanwhile, enjoy some music from my playlist, aptly titled 'Thingamajigs I Hope I Do Not Get Sick Of' //

I sound so unsure of myself right now. 

As is captioned for this picture below: I miss clear skies, I miss definition, and I miss surefooted-ness | caught up in the grey areas I refused to step foot in at the start.

On a side note, I tried to write with a little more care and standard. Been inspired by a certain blog written by someone of my age. And lately I've been writing another song. Hm. 

Much Love, 

Jubitai

Anniversary | Where it all started

This was where it all started: exactly one year ago. 

In the beginning, it all started from a single photoshoot which honestly was meant for filling up space on my AEP blog last year. Now, it's an avid hobby.

From being armed with an Olympus digital camera, cheesy overlay phone apps and Instagram, to now (to my relief), equipped with a DSLR and proper blog, doing photoshoots purposefully.

I'd say I've grown in my style, and from utter randomness to more randomness, from raw and unskilled to a little more skilled, from utter noob to less noob :) Still learning, still trying to grasp what I haven't/ 

Below are the stuff and photos I myself haven't seen in a long long long time, and a short visual diary of where it all began.

Oh, nostalgia.

Love, 

Jubitai 

P.S. sorry for the bad quality; changed my laptop since then and I took these off Facebook.

Birthday Shoot | Grunge & Roses

Today was a mix of photo-shoots, fooling around and hipster eating (packed under a budget though).

Always glad and grateful to have a friend like Fern to come down all the way to the East to agree to do a shoot with me ^_^ Basically we shot around the East area, and it was raining at the start, but thank God for stopping the rain and really great weather to shoot in after that! Anyway, we did individual as well as twin-ish shots  for each of the components; I'll introduce our adventure part by part, so enjoy!

Part 1: Roses // Floral Crowns

We headed to Telok Kurau Park as well as around my neighbourhood for this part to get some greenery and nature in our shots.  Telok Kurau Park's pretty pretty except for all the random bright blue steel benches thrown about the place (thus the limited shots this time round). Nevertheless, we got some rather decent shots and had fun in muddy puddles albeit slightly unhygienic.

 

 What I'm Wearing: Topshop White Crochet 60s Shift Minidress, DIY Oversized Floral Crown & DIY White Brogues with Blue Velvet Strip

What Fern's Wearing: Cut Out Shoulder Top, Zara Trafaluc Cream Double Side Slit Maxi Skirt & Rubi Tan Sandals

It was pretty funny when we started placing the camera on self-timer continuous shooting and running around on the grass to get some shots, and I'd say we were twinning it pretty well :>

Part 2: Lunch @ The Garden Slug

So after hanging out with gardens/nature/greenery all morning, we decided it was apt to head down to the Garden Slug; it has really great food at a decent price; you can check out their menu on their website. They've got a whole array of food; have yet to try it all, and I'd definitely revisit!

Fern had the Hot Honey and Lemon Lime, while I had the Iced Chocolate (not shown cause I couldn't get a nice pic).

For mains, Fern took the Salmon Confit tossed in herb-infused olive oil and white wine sauce, which was great actually (flavourful and strong fragrance with the zest of the squeezed lemon), but may come off as overpowering for some. 

I took the Juicy Shrimp & Roast Pumpkin Pasta in a rich pink "shrimpkin" sauce. This one was thoroughly satisfying for me, and the natural sweetness (yes, a pretty sweet pasta) of the shrimp as well at the pumpkin in the sauce perfectly complemented one another. Enjoyable and filling (double the carbs but double the enjoyment)! Super yummy ~

Part 3: Grunge // Alley Kids

This part of the shoot went really well, and we shot in an alley around Carlton Ave, and thankfully, although we were shooting behind other's property, we did have a supportive audience of a kind resident who supported our photo shoot, explaining that her son too did photography. Although we didn't really require her help, her friendliness did put us at ease to shoot in the alley behind those houses. Truly blessed! Secondly, the location had a well-suited ambience for our shoot, and that was awesome to have.

What Fern's Wearing: H&M Red Checkered Shirt, Miss Selfridge Lace Bralet, Nasty Gal Side Split Black Maxi Skirt, Styledasher Cut Out Boots (JC-inspired)

What I'm Wearing: Light Blue Topshop Textured Crop Top, TEM Double Front Split Midi Skirt, ASOS Extreme Marble Wash Denim Jacket, ASOS Black Leather Look Waist Belt, H&M Black Suede Platform Heels

Part 4: High Tea // Conclusion

We had afternoon tea (which pretty much covered our dinner appetite as well) at Flor, a Japanese cake patisserie just around the Siglap area. Expensive at around 7 bucks for a piece of cake, but still great to hang out at for its quietness and clean, neat space. It's worth a try, especially for this chestnut cake (below) which is pleasant to the tastebuds - it's subtly sweet with a light cake and equally light cream. The place is also usually full of wonderful cakes, but it happened that today they were almost all sold out, so we only managed to grab the chestnut as well as chocolate ones today!

That concludes our tiring and great day just hanging out and shooting, and here's a few happy shots to lighten and brighten the mood :)

With much love, 

Jubitai

Debut | Mermaid

{ Mermaid, to be trapped in space and time. 

To be caught in air as if underwater. 

To be caught in the body of a fish while being so human at the same time. }

Hey readers!

Here's my debut post of my blog to be based on photography and fashion and in general, art; enjoy your stay here! 

P.S. I did want to start with a jumpsuit for my debut in line with my blog name, but I did this impromptu shoot and decided to go along with this instead~

Love, Jubitai

What I'm Wearing: ASOS Cross-back Midi Dress

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